Friday, July 23, 2010

A Rhyme and a Reason?

It's been a rough day.  Even know I knew the odds,  I was still hopeful.   It seems that my obtaining Disability will take me upon the route that many others have had to travel.  I would have thought with some of the medical conditions I have it might have been easier.  I have tried and tried to prepare myself for the probability that I would be turned down on the first go-round. But I wanted to be one of the great exceptions to the rule. I guess I'm not so danged special after all!   I'm still bummed.  I will be filing for reconsideration next week and go from there.  I DID decide not to do anymore of this on my own and have acquired a good lawyer to help from here on out.  I'm still P.O.'d at Social Security for having taken 9 months (most first response is 4-6 months) to give me an answer.  I could be 3 months farther down the road by now.

Mushroom and Bud have been amazing through all this.They both say that things happen for a reason and I know that they are right.  Both of them feel that we were led here. That is to say that there is a reason we ended up here at this place and at this time.  I've had some time to think about that. Maybe they are right.  They said not to worry about things. That things are as they should be and that God knows what he is doing!  So for now I will work on trying not to worry about things I have no control over.  Wish me luck with that that one though. Worrying is a its a really bad habit of mine!  In some way I have to admit that because we got royally screwed by the Posers (where we were living before) we were led here because of it.  Rhyme and a Reason, ya know? 

It will be awhile now before that little piece of land in the country becomes a reality. And the chickens and the rabbits  will have to wait as well. But if it is meant to be then it will come when the time is right.  And not a moment before!  Disappointing to be sure  but its not life-ending.  I can only be bummed so long and then it is time to pick up and be happy for all that I have been blessed with.  I might be down, but I'm not out by a long shot! We are surrounded by wonderful caring people.  If that isn't a blessing then I don't know what is.  If you think this sounds like a pep talk to myself, well you are probably right.   But hey, if it works then all I did was bore you right?

               ~and it sure makes me feel better~


  1. (((Sci))

    I hope you know, that you are anything but boring. I am sorry you are going to have to appeal the process.

    You know, though, I am going to agree with Mushroom and Bud, right? everything happens for a reason, you know this too, I know you do. We've talked about it tons of times.

    For right now, you are right where you need to be, if not for yourself then you were put there for somebody else's benefit. I whole heartedly believe this; when the need is no longer there, you will be sent on your way, to find your own path. Right now, somebody else is deciding which path you should follow and it is beyond your control.

    Just trust in it, it wont be easy, but you can do it, I know you can. So stop worrying, easier said than done, I know because I worry too. :) Try to enjoy where you are right now, it is as it should be. :)


  2. (((((HUGS))))) You are not boring..And I know it is hard to understand it all but everyone is is all in God's timing.. You are in my prayers..Lisa

  3. The disability process sucks. You did good to hire a lawyer. I waited until after my third denial to hire one. I should have done it much sooner.

    You're in our thoughts and prayers.

  4. Keep your chin up. You're in my thoughts & prayers ~
    ~*~*~ Hugz ~*~*~

  5. Hugs to you my friend. It will all work out.

  6. I have a favorite quote from Robert Frost, "In three words, I can sum up what I've learned about life: 'It goes on.'"

    That about says it all. We all have our ups and downs, but it's the valleys where we learn the most. Trouble is, the lessons we learn are not always apparent until we make it back up to the top of that hill. As others have said, just be patient, it will all work out.

  7. Just remember, today is the day you worried about yesterday. This too shall pass and all will be as it should be. GOD doesn't make mistakes so, leave it all up to him. And, besides, worrying is like sleeping with a pack on your back.

  8. Thank you all for your kind words and your support. I know things will be just as they are supposed to be. We all have our paths in this life and I am glad to have you all as a part of mine!

  9. Sorry your disablilty didn't go through. But, I think you are doing the right thing about the lawyer. Good luck!