I try really hard not to get "down" this time of year. It's been kind of hard this year for some reason. We are just stretched so far that if the budget were any tighter it would snap and break. Shoot, we're so broke that even Christmas cards and stamps were out of the question. Along with the taxes being due, extra propane and the electric bill that has doubled with the cold weather there was the new battery we had to have for the car . With the little check we get by on that battery is our Christmas. BUT I have so much to be thankful for. Least of not which is our land. We are just two more payments away from it being paid for! We'll have a little bit more wiggle once that happens.
I've not said much of anything about the diesel truck I wrecked last Spring. It's been harder here than you know without that dang truck on the road. Mars is and always has been self employed and always needed a truck for the kind of work he does. Fencing, welding, decks, small construction jobs. Most all of those things require a pickup truck. You have got to have something to haul the materials in. So the loss of the truck not only put us out of transportation for a bit (thanks to good folks we do have our little beater car!) but it has put him out of work for the most part.
Not to mention all the things that we've been unable to do around here without a truck. It's hard to haul 8' or 1o' 2x4's in a little car. I swear I can't even look at Craigslist anymore. I am always seeing free "stuff" that we could use around here for the house we will onc day build. We just have no way to haul it.
Geesh, I don't know why I got off onto this subject. It makes me sound ungrateful for all the things we do have. I don't mean it to be. There are so many who are hurting worse than we are. Once the land is paid for it will free up some money in our budget. Then we can begin to tackle some the problems that have been set before us. We've just got to hang tight for now and know in our hearts that things happen for a reason. Even though we might not see it at the time.
I hesitated sharing this, knowing full well that it is bound to open up conversations I don't really want to have. I've pretty much always tried to see the positive and play down the negative here. I've tried to be honest though. This is just the way things are. This blog is as much for me to journal our travels and experiences in this new life that we have chosen, as it is to try in some small way to help others who are walking this path too. Thanks for letting me rant for a bit. I promise not to be such a Debbie Downer again this year.